I happened to put a cd in my car stereo I hadn’t listened to in a while. It was a collection of heavy metal tunes I used to love to drive to. I forgot how much I missed that music.
I have read a number of transgender blogs this last year. One interesting thing I have found is the large number of trans people (mostly MTF) used to listen to heavy metal and punk music. Once they start to transition their musical interests seem to change. I know that my tastes lean more towards Katy Perry, Lady Gaga and ‘gasp’ Taylor Swift then Mötley Crüe.
I wonder if loud pounding music helped to silence the noise in our heads. Maybe the testosterone fueled lyrics and blaring guitars helped to mask our suppressed femininity. Also, long hair was a sign of a serious rocker. We could indulge in the luxury of pony tails without being labelled gay or girly. After all, those long haired rock gods got all the awesome girls. Although I know I occasionally thought how cool it would be to one of those rocker chicks.
Now I listen to music that appeals to my girly side. Songs filled with emotions and fun fill my iPod and cd player. The kind of music that makes me want to dance and sing along.
But, every once and a while that rocker chick comes out. The yearning for spandex, leather and high heels. I have the long hair again but I look more like Lita Ford than Vince Neil. Not that I mind at all now.
So this morning I left for work listening to ‘Born This Way’. By the time I arrived it was ‘Paradise City’. Yes my musical tastes have changed a bit. The face looking back from the rear view mirror has changed too. In fact she’s pretty cute for a 47 year old rocker chick. I think I pop in some Def Leopard for the drive home.