Today was one the the worst days in recent memory. We had our mediation with our former landlord. She is a bitch from hell. I can honestly say that we had prepared ourselves very well for this. However, she pulled out a ton of dirty tricks. Honesty and sincerity did not pay this time. But I could leave the table knowing we were right and she was wrong. We didn’t get what we deserved but we gave her a fight. At least all this is over and we can get on with our lives.
I have felt pretty awful today. It took a while before my stomach felt like taking food. I did have a nice lunch with my wife afterwards. We tried a new sandwich place nearby and the weather was nice enough to eat outside. She has been even more upset than me. I think she blames herself that we didn’t do better. It’s not her fault and I have been telling her all day.
This experience has brought us closer than we have been for a while. She even let me give her a hug in the middle of Target tonight Since I started to look less like her husband it’s been nearly impossible to even hold her hand in public. It’s a small step but one in the right direction.
Today was not a complete waste. I got a text from the girl I work closely with and the jerk who sits next to me gave his notice. He has been a source of stress and harassment since I came out. In fact I know several people have files HR complaints against him in the past few years. My coworker also let me know that I have been put back on her team full time. The last six months I have been dragged here and there. I was the girl who they counted on to pick up the slack and and help out other teams. Then I just became the one they dumped everything on. if someone wasn’t pulling their weight they weren’t told to get going; they just gave me the work because management knew it would get done. After a while you can only do so much. I know that my being trans makes me a target. I wanted to show everyone that I am not hiding behind my transsexuality. Being trans will never be an excuse to slack off.
I got another tidbit of good news today. My friend Corrine has met a girl who likes her. Rinn needs this. She has been so down recently for a number of reasons. I love Rinn, she reminds me so much of myself. We are two of a kind. However, her potential girlfriend does not know yet that Rinn is trans. She is going to tell this girl tomorrow. Corrine will be in my prayers tonight. If all goes well I will get to meet this girl too 🙂
Well, it’s midnight and I have a bath cap in my head. I finally got around to getting rid of my gray. I’m back to jet black again, hurray. I am also finishing off a piece of lemon meringue pie. Well there goes the gray and my waistline. Comfort food and vanity. Now I am off to rinse my hair and hit the pillow.
Thank you to everyone who supported us and sent their best wishes. It means a lot to my wife and I. We were able to avoid a full blown lawsuit and we did come out of this with a settlement. A weight has been lifted off our shoulders but healing may take a bit longer.